Beyond Myself

I have been asked why I am so determined to tell my story.  Some people don't understand why I would expose something so private, or open my life up to strangers.  The answer is really simple.  The Lord made the call!  He has placed a call on my life and it goes far beyond just me.  For years I had my journal  in a binder that I could share with someone here and there.  It was very rare that the person reading it was a stranger.  I either knew them or knew who they were (through a friend). 

When I first began to realize what God was instructing me to do with the journal (and my story), I was really nervous.  I thought, why?  I had been faithful to share it with people when the opportunity would arise.  Why would He want me to do more??? 

I have learned so much over the years and a couple of those lessons are that, when God The Father tells me to do something, it is always in my best interest to just do it!  The other is that it is not all about ME!  His call on my life goes far beyond ME!!!!  There is a lost and hurting world out there and I have a message of healing and restoration that they need to hear!  I can testify FIRST HAND of the power of God!!!  Of the supernatural love that He wants to express through His children!  He wants to express it through me!  No matter what Satan says, God wants to use me.  I believe that my book is going to open many doors!  Doors that will lead me to people and places to share what The Lord has done in my life.  What He wants to do in the lives of others!  He has done so much more in my life than what can be read on the pages of my book! 

So I do not move into this call for myself.  My Daddy God has placed a deep, very deep desire in my heart to see others set free!  He is still growing that love in me.  When I think about the things that I know He is moving me into, I used to dread, and doubt that I could even do, but more and more I find that I now desire in my heart to do those things!  I now WANT to do those things that I know will only be possible for me to do with Him.  It excites me when I think of stepping into this call and allowing Jesus to use me to bring others to Him!  To live BEYOND MYSELF!!!!  To love, REALLY LOVE others because of the Love of God!  You know, when you have found something so good, you want EVERYBODY ELSE to have it, too =)

Oh, somethings moving!  Somethings changing!  See His Glory!  Feels like Heaven on earth!!!
(song; "Heaven on Earth"  by:  David & Nicole Binion)

BLESSED TO BE A BLESSING!

Book News!

I am super excited!!!  I have been waiting for my book proofs to come and yesterday THEY CAME!! 
They had told me that the cover may have to have some adjustment so I could not hardly wait to see what it would look like.  It is a little different (more like I had originally wanted it).  I LOVE IT!  I cannot wait to share it with everyone!  I also had to read through the "inside text", which is my life, to make sure I was happy with the layout and design.  I am happy to say that I sent it back with only 3 adjustments!  After those adjustments are taken care of, it's DONE!!!  Wow, I have been on this journey for so long it feels a bit strange to think that it is coming to an end.  But as this phase ends I know that a much different phase is just beginning, and I am SO EXCITED!  The Lord has filled my heart with this love story and I am ready for it to be told!  I am ready to tell it! 

As I read through the "text" of my book yesterday I was reminded once again just how far Daddy God has grown me and I was (and still am) overwhelmed my His LOVE for ME!!!  Then I daydream about the future He is leading me into and my heart feels like it is on the verge of bursting =)  

So now I just wait..... but I have found so much joy in the waiting.  After I sent in my transcript and began talking with the publisher about the process of publishing, I knew there would be "wait" times.  I'm normally not a very good "waiter"!   Then, the publisher suggested I start this blog.  My first thought was, oh no!  I really had no idea what I was doing. But I dove in and just worked my way through!  I began to pray for God to show me how to increase my blog.  I knew He was working on my behalf and I just trusted that He would show me what to do. HE NEVER DISAPPOINTS!   He has sent me a helper (I will share more about this later).  I will say that, just like He always does, He has sent the perfect person to help me!  He never does anything halfway, but always wants the very best for His children =)    I also must say that it didn't take long at all for me to fall deep in love with the world of blog!  God has blessed me through the lives of those who have joined me on this journey. 

GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!  SO GOOD!!!!!  There is absolutely nothing He cannot do through a willing child!  He has given me BIG DREAMS!  I dream them on purpose!  I dream them almost like I am practicing them before they come to pass!  Oh, the things He has in store!!!  Hope, joy and excitement rise up on the inside of me and fuels my expectation for my future!  It's gonna be WILD; it's gonna be GREAT; it's gonna be FULL OF HIM!   (from the song; "Come away with Me" by Jesus Culture)  I listen to this song and just allow my Daddy God to minister to me =)


BLESSED TO BE A BLESSING!

I'll Take The Best Please!!!

Have you ever thought about why we sometimes just accept less than the best?  I was really thinking about this the other day.  I know that God wants only the very best for me yet I have found myself accepting less because I feel selfish taking more than my share!!  The closer I grow in my relationship with my Daddy God, the more Satan is exposed!  See, it is our enemy that wants us to stay beaten down, not receiving what God wants for us.

 I can remember when I started the journey through facing my attack and all that went with that, I would journal every day.  Most days would consist of, waking from a nightmare, realizing it was real, trying to NOT think about it, having flashbacks, writing them down, trying to work, be a mom, be a wife, hold down my job.  Then at the end of the day I would look back and think, is THIS my life?  I allowed the enemy to get a lot of talking in through those days.  And the killer is, I BELIEVED HIM!  I believed that somehow it was all my fault.  I believed him when he told me I was so damaged that I just needed to find a way to live with it because it wasn't going to get any better.    When he told me my husband despised me and everyone around me didn't want to hear or help me.  I believed him when he told me that this was what I deserved!  Satan would always bring up my past and all the hurt that went along with it.  BUT GOD!!!  My hero, my Savior, my protector, my healer!  He is my TRUTH-TELLER!

 It was only when I started listening to God that I began to heal and move forward.  He replaced all the lies with THE TRUTH!  He created me to love and be loved and that is all I need to know!  Yes, I have been hurt.  We all have!  But HE loves bigger that the hurt!!!  I no longer have the need to be fed by lies!  I am worthy of receiving the VERY BEST!  God sent His son, Who knew no sin, to be sin, so that through Him we might become the righteousness of God (from 2 Cor. 5:21).  It pleases the Lord when we confess that we are His righteousness, because we are laying hold of what He suffered and died to give us!!!  I for one am going to graciously ACCEPT what He died to give ME! I am His righteousness!  There is still an enemy that continues to throw things up in my face but God loves me with a love that is above anything the devil and dig up!!!

 I hope that you are encouraged today!  Make THIS the day that the voice of Christ becomes louder that the voice of our enemy!

 Tomorrow I am going to post an excerpt from my book!!!  This is another biggy for me so be kind!!  hahaha

 BLESSED TO BE A BLESSING!!!